Katy Perry has a humor that so many don't appreciate...here she is making fun of Beyonce's "Single Ladies" video in a dressing room with her makeup artists..
PUT A RING ON IT ...KATY PERRY
Saturday, November 29, 2008
Monday, November 24, 2008
Winter Cleaning
I have a good feeling about this week...
I can't entirely explain it..and maybe it's not just this week...
I feel very repaired after this weekend. I feel just as I had to do last year, there seems to be the coming of another point in time where I've had to pull the weeds from my life in order to function..in order to grow. These weeds: people, situations, current events have been making my life stressful, more stressful than it needed be for ANY reason whatsoever. I'm starting to feel extremely relieved that I've begun the gardening process, Just over the weekend, in the SMALL amount of gardening I've done I'm already feeling lighter than I have in past weeks.
It's almost like Kanye therapy..in essence keeping my "love lockdown" or more, everything lockdown. I feel like this is just the beginning of organizing things for things to be better...
Just the beginning..starting with just a little weeding out...
I can't entirely explain it..and maybe it's not just this week...
I feel very repaired after this weekend. I feel just as I had to do last year, there seems to be the coming of another point in time where I've had to pull the weeds from my life in order to function..in order to grow. These weeds: people, situations, current events have been making my life stressful, more stressful than it needed be for ANY reason whatsoever. I'm starting to feel extremely relieved that I've begun the gardening process, Just over the weekend, in the SMALL amount of gardening I've done I'm already feeling lighter than I have in past weeks.
It's almost like Kanye therapy..in essence keeping my "love lockdown" or more, everything lockdown. I feel like this is just the beginning of organizing things for things to be better...
Just the beginning..starting with just a little weeding out...
Sunday, November 23, 2008
Lost in Translation
I watched "Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles"...the cartoon this morning...
I ate a 'snack wrap' from McDonalds for Breakfast..it's a day old..
Some might deem this as......
-risky
-idiotic
-immature
-gross
-senseless
but most importantly...
-childish
However, no matter what others might deem it as, I did these things because I chose to do them. Not off the thought of what others might feel, think or say about it.
Anyone who has been reading is aware of the current turmoil I've been in with my job...and yesterday, Boss Lady and I had an amazing conversation about..everything that as she put it is "lost in translation". It seems that, many who I speak to, aren't translating the things I'm saying or understanding me. In times like this, as opposed to digging a hole for yourself, I would rather keep my mouth shut with those parties and speak in depth to the parties that I can actually trust. I want to say "much to my surprise", but it's not..that the information regarding my blog has been disclosed to my boss. Of course, I know exactly where that came from. My boss brought it up, not being negative..but the fact that she was seemingly reported to irritates me.
This is my work....
This is my method of expression...
There is nothing to report...
And more importantly, just as it was stated in the conversation, it is my "freedom of speech" and off the strength of that solely I will not stop writing nor will I censor myself.
I think what truly annoys me, is with all other stresses and my job being one of them..I don't need, nor did I ever ask for a Public Relations representative. If anyone needs to consult how I feel, think etc. it's all here; no need for translation or self-interpretation.
Lately, I'm so stressed and angry that I literally feel the pressure in my heart beat. I mean it can't be normal that I feel evey single heart beat in my chest with a slight pain right?
....I didnt think so..
When I thought I wasn't already lost enough in translation during the first 8 hours of my day, The Significant tops it off.
He might be moving out of state to finish college, in which at this EXTREMELY late point in his game makes absolutely NO sense and is NOT remotely cost effective. More importantly, his younger sibling is entering their first year of college, and it seems like the plan is almost to follow the sibling to their location and play..."big brother". The whole point of one going AWAY to college is for them to engage in a learning experience..He's almost stripping the opportunity away if the constant thought is "What if something happens". That's the POINT of college. Everything happens. It's the opportunity to learn from the curve balls, not have a Secret Service on standby to protect you from those curve balls. Over the past week, every thing that I'm saying to him regarding the subject and any other subject for that matter-we argue. I'm not sure if it's minor roadblocks this past week, or if I'm seeing these things and putting it together as things that I know I will not stand for in the future. That would mean a dead end. He even made a comment, that came across as deeply conceited and it struck such a nerve with me and in me explaining to him that he is pretty conceited, we haven't' spoken in two days.
Now does it bother me that we're not speaking? Of COURSE it does...it always bothers me when we're fighting with one another. But the difference about this situation is, the truth hurts..doesnt' it?
Apparently I'm so lost in translation..that all my speech is chopped and screwed..
I ate a 'snack wrap' from McDonalds for Breakfast..it's a day old..
Some might deem this as......
-risky
-idiotic
-immature
-gross
-senseless
but most importantly...
-childish
However, no matter what others might deem it as, I did these things because I chose to do them. Not off the thought of what others might feel, think or say about it.
Anyone who has been reading is aware of the current turmoil I've been in with my job...and yesterday, Boss Lady and I had an amazing conversation about..everything that as she put it is "lost in translation". It seems that, many who I speak to, aren't translating the things I'm saying or understanding me. In times like this, as opposed to digging a hole for yourself, I would rather keep my mouth shut with those parties and speak in depth to the parties that I can actually trust. I want to say "much to my surprise", but it's not..that the information regarding my blog has been disclosed to my boss. Of course, I know exactly where that came from. My boss brought it up, not being negative..but the fact that she was seemingly reported to irritates me.
This is my work....
This is my method of expression...
There is nothing to report...
And more importantly, just as it was stated in the conversation, it is my "freedom of speech" and off the strength of that solely I will not stop writing nor will I censor myself.
I think what truly annoys me, is with all other stresses and my job being one of them..I don't need, nor did I ever ask for a Public Relations representative. If anyone needs to consult how I feel, think etc. it's all here; no need for translation or self-interpretation.
Lately, I'm so stressed and angry that I literally feel the pressure in my heart beat. I mean it can't be normal that I feel evey single heart beat in my chest with a slight pain right?
....I didnt think so..
When I thought I wasn't already lost enough in translation during the first 8 hours of my day, The Significant tops it off.
He might be moving out of state to finish college, in which at this EXTREMELY late point in his game makes absolutely NO sense and is NOT remotely cost effective. More importantly, his younger sibling is entering their first year of college, and it seems like the plan is almost to follow the sibling to their location and play..."big brother". The whole point of one going AWAY to college is for them to engage in a learning experience..He's almost stripping the opportunity away if the constant thought is "What if something happens". That's the POINT of college. Everything happens. It's the opportunity to learn from the curve balls, not have a Secret Service on standby to protect you from those curve balls. Over the past week, every thing that I'm saying to him regarding the subject and any other subject for that matter-we argue. I'm not sure if it's minor roadblocks this past week, or if I'm seeing these things and putting it together as things that I know I will not stand for in the future. That would mean a dead end. He even made a comment, that came across as deeply conceited and it struck such a nerve with me and in me explaining to him that he is pretty conceited, we haven't' spoken in two days.
Now does it bother me that we're not speaking? Of COURSE it does...it always bothers me when we're fighting with one another. But the difference about this situation is, the truth hurts..doesnt' it?
Apparently I'm so lost in translation..that all my speech is chopped and screwed..
Saturday, November 22, 2008
Mya Update: Paradise
I had NO idea she was even still alive..
and I NEED to start doing squats..her legs and butt is craaazy..
She definitely was on some "Feed the Children" look when she first arrived on the scene..
Mya hasn't being doing anything called "good" in the U.S. with her music, and with her taking the hint...she's dropping this in Japan...
...Smart...
and I NEED to start doing squats..her legs and butt is craaazy..
She definitely was on some "Feed the Children" look when she first arrived on the scene..
Mya hasn't being doing anything called "good" in the U.S. with her music, and with her taking the hint...she's dropping this in Japan...
...Smart...
Song of the Day: 11/22/08-Kidz in the Hall F/Estelle
I'm really feelin' these Kidz...and Estelle just seems to make EVERY track just a smidge better :)
Kidz in the Hall Featuring Estelle "Love Hangover"....
...Definitely have had a couple of those....
Kidz in the Hall Featuring Estelle "Love Hangover"....
...Definitely have had a couple of those....
Thursday, November 13, 2008
Whiplash
Some times..I wonder when I go to work if slavery is truly over.
I mean, Im not trying to sound callous but assessing the situation of what myself and my co-workers have to endure called "workload" I truly sit back and contemplate what are the chances that slavery truly isn't over.
Sometimes I hear, "Oh it's only because you're a baby amd this is your first big time job..thats why you see it that way"
But then i realize....
that the people who school me with that line usually have:
It certainly doesnt feel like im NOT a slave...so why front??
I'm exhausted and more than that I'm fed up because this is NOT my dream in life. This makes it all the worse when i feel like a chicken in a coop..or maybe worse im starting to feel like a calfe in a cage.
How nice.
Ironically, what comes on the radio as I write?
Big Pun "Its So Hard".
Goddamn right it is. I'm so terrified that THIS just might be my life that the dream may not ever happen.
And THATS the part that's so hard.....
I mean, Im not trying to sound callous but assessing the situation of what myself and my co-workers have to endure called "workload" I truly sit back and contemplate what are the chances that slavery truly isn't over.
Sometimes I hear, "Oh it's only because you're a baby amd this is your first big time job..thats why you see it that way"
But then i realize....
that the people who school me with that line usually have:
- ulcers
- heart problems
- have had or are about to have a stroke
- or are on the express subway train to an aneyurism.
It certainly doesnt feel like im NOT a slave...so why front??
I'm exhausted and more than that I'm fed up because this is NOT my dream in life. This makes it all the worse when i feel like a chicken in a coop..or maybe worse im starting to feel like a calfe in a cage.
How nice.
Ironically, what comes on the radio as I write?
Big Pun "Its So Hard".
Goddamn right it is. I'm so terrified that THIS just might be my life that the dream may not ever happen.
And THATS the part that's so hard.....
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
Rihanna Update: Rehab (Preview Video)
This is Rihanna's 97,167th video off of the "Good Girl Gone Bad" album...
Originally, this track "Rehab" was her solo, but she re did it featuring Justin Timberlake.
Smart move.....
Originally, this track "Rehab" was her solo, but she re did it featuring Justin Timberlake.
Smart move.....
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
Asia Nitollano Update: It's Official, November KING Magazine
Asia's KING magazine photos are finally out...
Two more for now...and she's signed to Murder Inc., meanwhile I'm going to PRAY Irv Gotti doesn't destroy her destiny...
{source}
Monday, November 10, 2008
Blog Dipset Update: Jax Poetic's Birthday
{New Jack @ Jax Poetic's party}
You can tell we had a good night.......
On Saturday, 11/8/08, I threw a
Can I toot my own horn and say that I LOVE that plaid dress I wore, and that it was disgustingly fierce for its public debut?
Yep......
Sunday, November 9, 2008
Kanye West Update: Heartless Video
From the beginning I was not a huge Love Lockdown kinda girl....I WAS however, a huge HEARTLESS fan...
Oh, how dreams come true...
Oh, how dreams come true...
The Possible Domestication of a New Jack
Its that time again...
Its becoming mid-november and im starting to ponder all the 2009 possibilities. This time last year I was in heavy review of the disaster I referred to as 2007..
Yeah disaster was most certainly the term..
Right now im writing from a school gym in Harlem that I arrived to around 9am. Im watching The Significant train his kids for little league which in the winter is referred to as "clinic".
I'm realizing maybe the New Jack needs to get a little bit more domesticated...
Watching a little boy cry and realizig that i wouldnt know what the bloody hell to do with him frightens me immensely. The Significant and 2 other guys relatively 25-26years old immediately went into damage control knowing just what to do and say to a 8year old who was crying to rebuild his confidence.
And it hir me...What the fuck would I do?
I mean its almost humorous..almost. I can't communicate with children older than the age that enables them to tell me "no". Likewise i cant communicate with children young enough to do sole crying either. I know how to cook and very well but only feel to do so when utmost necessary.
I hate to clean..
and I don't do dogs.
I refuse to potty train an animal let alone a human and some people fail to understand that some are not naturally nuturing.
Just because i have a vagina doesn't mean that I just loooove babies.
But I don't hate them either...
(My BFF Linette is convinced that's the case..)
I think 2009 might just be the year of domesticating the New Jack. I'm afraid of babies, but I do however want to get married as soon as tomorrow. Maybe, I have to force myself to...love them. I have to open the door to all these things I fear..children and dogs especially, in order to ever get married it seems.
Honestly though, if you have to force yourself into something, then isn't it just plain WRONG?
So how exactly does one become a Stepford Wife?
Its becoming mid-november and im starting to ponder all the 2009 possibilities. This time last year I was in heavy review of the disaster I referred to as 2007..
Yeah disaster was most certainly the term..
Right now im writing from a school gym in Harlem that I arrived to around 9am. Im watching The Significant train his kids for little league which in the winter is referred to as "clinic".
I'm realizing maybe the New Jack needs to get a little bit more domesticated...
Watching a little boy cry and realizig that i wouldnt know what the bloody hell to do with him frightens me immensely. The Significant and 2 other guys relatively 25-26years old immediately went into damage control knowing just what to do and say to a 8year old who was crying to rebuild his confidence.
And it hir me...What the fuck would I do?
I mean its almost humorous..almost. I can't communicate with children older than the age that enables them to tell me "no". Likewise i cant communicate with children young enough to do sole crying either. I know how to cook and very well but only feel to do so when utmost necessary.
I hate to clean..
and I don't do dogs.
I refuse to potty train an animal let alone a human and some people fail to understand that some are not naturally nuturing.
Just because i have a vagina doesn't mean that I just loooove babies.
But I don't hate them either...
(My BFF Linette is convinced that's the case..)
I think 2009 might just be the year of domesticating the New Jack. I'm afraid of babies, but I do however want to get married as soon as tomorrow. Maybe, I have to force myself to...love them. I have to open the door to all these things I fear..children and dogs especially, in order to ever get married it seems.
Honestly though, if you have to force yourself into something, then isn't it just plain WRONG?
So how exactly does one become a Stepford Wife?
Anonymous, I Love You...
I read a comment today that was posted yesterday that made me chuckle...
I'm not sure which part I love more..honestly. The idea that I don't "have" Jesus, as implied by the word: "need" or, the fact that the person posted their comment anonymously.
I love comments...
I love the entire art of expression: photos, music, writings, tears, laughter, love, hatred, peace
I love Jesus.
I love people.
I love the opportunities for everything that has been provided to us, and wouldn't be possible without God.
What entertains me the MOST however, is just upon reading this comment...I was checking my e-mail and saw TODAY'S Bible verse of the day.
Just as the Barack post, and the verse was SO fitting...this one was as well:
Explanation: "Christians need to remember that though we are in this world we are not of this world; our ultimate citizenship is in heaven. The eager desire of Christians is not earthly things, but a heavenly Person, the Savior, the Lord Jesus Christ (Rom. 8:19-25)." {source}
I anger not at this comment and all comments LIKE this. All I say is,
I love myself.
I love this channel of expression that has worked so well for me.
I love The Lord.
I guess a day's work is pretty much done then huh?
"Religion and lewdness don't mix. You need Jesus, FOR REAL!!! "
I'm not sure which part I love more..honestly. The idea that I don't "have" Jesus, as implied by the word: "need" or, the fact that the person posted their comment anonymously.
I love comments...
I love the entire art of expression: photos, music, writings, tears, laughter, love, hatred, peace
I love Jesus.
I love people.
I love the opportunities for everything that has been provided to us, and wouldn't be possible without God.
What entertains me the MOST however, is just upon reading this comment...I was checking my e-mail and saw TODAY'S Bible verse of the day.
Just as the Barack post, and the verse was SO fitting...this one was as well:
Philippians 3:20:
"For our citizenship is in heaven, from which also we eagerly wait for a Savior, the Lord Jesus Christ" {source}
"For our citizenship is in heaven, from which also we eagerly wait for a Savior, the Lord Jesus Christ" {source}
Explanation: "Christians need to remember that though we are in this world we are not of this world; our ultimate citizenship is in heaven. The eager desire of Christians is not earthly things, but a heavenly Person, the Savior, the Lord Jesus Christ (Rom. 8:19-25)." {source}
I anger not at this comment and all comments LIKE this. All I say is,
Love yourself...
Love your work...
Love God.
Love your work...
Love God.
I love myself.
I love this channel of expression that has worked so well for me.
I love The Lord.
I guess a day's work is pretty much done then huh?
Thursday, November 6, 2008
Pussycat Dolls Update: PCD Continues to Wear Lingerie for a Living
The PussyCat Dolls have just been "awarded" their first and very own lingerie line...
This shocks you none...
It shocks me none...
Nicole is still the epicenter of their lives..
{photo: the life files}
You're Getting Sleepy...
To tell the truth...
I'm friggin exhausted....
I've been drowning in so much work, and with my body not physically up to par, this week if anyone couldn't tell, I've been entirely off the ball.
I pick up the laptop...
Open for a post...
The next I know:
I'm putting down the laptop...
And falling unconsciouss..
This unattractive, eat and constant sleep routine is not doing ANYTHING positive for my weight.
One can only imagine...
But I do however, hope to report now that my thyroid medication has passed through and I have some, ahem, change in my account that I can I guess dedicate to my prescriptions as well as failing car. It just seems as of late, as much as I'm trying to remain positive there's either not enough hours in the day or I'm too exhausted to utilize the hours in the day.
Its been said several times "Sleep is the cousin of death", with how often I've been asleep by my choice or not, I'm wondering if I'm honestly getting in too close with the family...
There's so much left to do, so much left to accomplish, and in recent..and odd thoughts of death of late, what really happens when it's all over? I've been so unmotivated of late. Making plans to lose X amount of weight,staring at inspiration, staring at all the available tools to make a change in as little as three weeks. I've done absolutely nothing. Correction, I have. I've slept. I'm in such a deep, and what others would refer to as dark place in my mind completely wrapped in the uncertainty of death. What one immediately experiences after their heart beats its last beat. I'm wrapped in the truth that I refuse to acknowledge that my heart too, will one day beat its last beat.
I don't know when..
I don't know how...
But, I haven't come to accept that it will happen...
A woman of 106 years old voted on Tuesday, November 4th, 2008. You wonder...
How much green tea did she drink?
How active was she per day?
How did she avoid: heart disease, diabetes, cancer, car accidents, stroke,alzheimer's, you name it..
..Was she CHOSEN to live this long..for a reason...
I'm hoping with me purchasing my thyroid medication that it helps me in the physical department hard core...the sleeping, has honestly, got to lighten up a whole lot.
And the death thing?
A little less Grey's Anatomy could be an easy cure.....
I'm friggin exhausted....
I've been drowning in so much work, and with my body not physically up to par, this week if anyone couldn't tell, I've been entirely off the ball.
I pick up the laptop...
Open for a post...
The next I know:
I'm putting down the laptop...
And falling unconsciouss..
This unattractive, eat and constant sleep routine is not doing ANYTHING positive for my weight.
One can only imagine...
But I do however, hope to report now that my thyroid medication has passed through and I have some, ahem, change in my account that I can I guess dedicate to my prescriptions as well as failing car. It just seems as of late, as much as I'm trying to remain positive there's either not enough hours in the day or I'm too exhausted to utilize the hours in the day.
Its been said several times "Sleep is the cousin of death", with how often I've been asleep by my choice or not, I'm wondering if I'm honestly getting in too close with the family...
There's so much left to do, so much left to accomplish, and in recent..and odd thoughts of death of late, what really happens when it's all over? I've been so unmotivated of late. Making plans to lose X amount of weight,staring at inspiration, staring at all the available tools to make a change in as little as three weeks. I've done absolutely nothing. Correction, I have. I've slept. I'm in such a deep, and what others would refer to as dark place in my mind completely wrapped in the uncertainty of death. What one immediately experiences after their heart beats its last beat. I'm wrapped in the truth that I refuse to acknowledge that my heart too, will one day beat its last beat.
I don't know when..
I don't know how...
But, I haven't come to accept that it will happen...
A woman of 106 years old voted on Tuesday, November 4th, 2008. You wonder...
How much green tea did she drink?
How active was she per day?
How did she avoid: heart disease, diabetes, cancer, car accidents, stroke,alzheimer's, you name it..
..Was she CHOSEN to live this long..for a reason...
I'm hoping with me purchasing my thyroid medication that it helps me in the physical department hard core...the sleeping, has honestly, got to lighten up a whole lot.
And the death thing?
A little less Grey's Anatomy could be an easy cure.....
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
Barack-ed the VOTE
There are some things in life, that so many people do not agree upon...this happens for a multitude of reasons to name a few:
Some due to ignorance...
Some due to selfishness....
The inability to expand ones horizons...
Choice...
Deception....
Force....
I was always told as I grew, there are two things you try your best not to discuss at work or amongst most people due to the above, and those things are: Religion and Politics.
In order to voice my opinion about the Barack Obama win, this historic moment I will go entirely against prior instruction and combine the two things I was always told to hush my mouth about...
Some due to ignorance...
Some due to selfishness....
The inability to expand ones horizons...
Choice...
Deception....
Force....
I was always told as I grew, there are two things you try your best not to discuss at work or amongst most people due to the above, and those things are: Religion and Politics.
In order to voice my opinion about the Barack Obama win, this historic moment I will go entirely against prior instruction and combine the two things I was always told to hush my mouth about...
Romans 13:1
Every person is to be in subjection to the governing authorities For there is no authority except from God, and those which exist are established by God.
Sunday, November 2, 2008
Lil Wayne Update: Mrs. Officer Video
Can we say...it's about TIME...
I love that he made the ending have "Comfortable" featuring Babyface..
I love that he made the ending have "Comfortable" featuring Babyface..
"Why So Serious" on Halloween?
I forgot...
I was a kitten at work for Halloween before transforming into NYPD...
People insist that they have to have blood falling EVERYWHERE on Halloween..Can we not terrify the babies?
Arrest Me, Please...
I definitely made up for some things Halloween '08...
The night of Halloween itself was hysterical with that being the quote I heard all night..long...
"Arrest me, please.."
"I'll leave with you to the precinct RIGHT now"
So many...immigrants, begged me for photos I was beginning to become confused as to WHO I am...
With the song, "Mrs. Officer" by Lil Wayne, this was by far the year to be a cop..
I LOVED everyone who sung to me..
We incurred some drama with Webster Hall however...
Being that they're completely unfocused, they well over booked and were well over capacity when we got there at 1AM. The party wasn't supposed to shut down until 5...
Our "friend" refused to exit, but it's all good she proved a lot that I already knew about her in that same night. She never fails to disappoint me, and somehow she always finds a way to outdo herself from her last failure.
Upset with the "friend" , we had to make up for it last night and it was a REALLY GOOD night to say the least. I debuted a new corset I purchased back in August..
(more on The New Jack Photos page)
It served its purpose, as I in an economic crisis drank for free all night. Last night was the right time for that debut! LOL! It was such a wild, confused crew last night...
The Long Island usuals, the crack-head usuals, and my Brooklyn unusuals...however, I was very pleased that we all blended together really nicely last night. So now, I spend my Sunday in recovery...
I definitely "beat it like a cop" all weekend long...
The night of Halloween itself was hysterical with that being the quote I heard all night..long...
"Arrest me, please.."
"I'll leave with you to the precinct RIGHT now"
So many...immigrants, begged me for photos I was beginning to become confused as to WHO I am...
With the song, "Mrs. Officer" by Lil Wayne, this was by far the year to be a cop..
I LOVED everyone who sung to me..
We incurred some drama with Webster Hall however...
Being that they're completely unfocused, they well over booked and were well over capacity when we got there at 1AM. The party wasn't supposed to shut down until 5...
Our "friend" refused to exit, but it's all good she proved a lot that I already knew about her in that same night. She never fails to disappoint me, and somehow she always finds a way to outdo herself from her last failure.
Upset with the "friend" , we had to make up for it last night and it was a REALLY GOOD night to say the least. I debuted a new corset I purchased back in August..
(more on The New Jack Photos page)
It served its purpose, as I in an economic crisis drank for free all night. Last night was the right time for that debut! LOL! It was such a wild, confused crew last night...
The Long Island usuals, the crack-head usuals, and my Brooklyn unusuals...however, I was very pleased that we all blended together really nicely last night. So now, I spend my Sunday in recovery...
I definitely "beat it like a cop" all weekend long...
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