Thursday, March 26, 2009

Lollipop, You Must Mistake Me for a Sucker

The Significant cheated on me again! HA!
The same man, two times in 3 years and wasn't any more intelligent about it in comparison to the last time back in 2006....

...After drinking away a 3 year committment, I'll elaborate after my place of employment...

"Lollipop, you must mistake me for a sucker...."

Monday, March 23, 2009

Christina Milian Update: The Dream

I'm so very stressed by these images...wow...









































































She left Dre for real, and is with The Dream, Mr. Radio Killa himself...















































Images: Rap-UP

Ciara Update: Love, Sex, Magic

Very....official....

And I'm never missing a Pilates class again like I did last week...

Saturday, March 21, 2009

New Jack Update: To STORM or Not to Storm?

Tis the question?

I'm actually stalking a 2 week old Blackberry Storm on Ebay as I write, which has a little over an HOUR left on the bid and is $275.














My mouth is watering beyond words...
I'm having the biggest internal battle of my soul trying to decide to toss my hands to the wind and say "Well, to fix the recession, we've got to put money back in". OR, to hold on to the $275..still with the awareness that with the Storm retailing at $519.00 (I asked Verizon) I'll NEVER get a Storm for $275...ever..again..

To Storm...or not to Storm...
I hope I make the right decision...

Saturday, March 14, 2009

Judgement Week

A week's recap....

Sunday: I spent the end of the day with The Significant and family, attending a game of his but left everyone already having a gut feeling that the week wasn't going to be a great one..which is weird because I was looking forward to getting paid on Thursday, so what is there to be weird about?

Monday: Drowning at work, drowning at work and drowning at work with the top off of my medication giving me a near heart attack. At the age of 22, my heart beating at what felt like 200 beats per minute was definitely not the look I was going for. My heart was racing so much, I couldn't even get breath some times to speak and clearly explain what I felt.

Tuesday: On the heels of my heart still beating out of my chest, I got into a wild tiff with the BFF..a combination of exhaustion, confusion, and more took things to a level not needed..but after a bit of a long and drawn out battle, we found ourselves onto the same page...

Wednesday: A good ole' panic attack...had me pretty ready to pack my bags and call it quits. I tried to find consolation in The Significant which proved to be a huge waste of time..so I truly almost cried from sun up, to sun down..

Thursday: Drained and miserable, The Sherriff sends me notice that my wages will be ganished. Yeah...stripped from me. It's going to be rough for the next year...

Friday: The day crawled by..and the entire week I just noted how from every angle possible, everyone had something to complain about, something to use to break me down, all while I was physically falling apart..I tried to spend some time with The Significant on Friday night, but I started to drift off as early as 10pm..hyper & frustrated, he left at 11pm.

My weekend felt like it lasted a whole of 5 minutes. I was so drained and didn't have nearly as much time as needed to recover.
Good thing I took off yesterday and today...they were beyond needed...

Kim Kardashian Update: Season 3, Episode 1-Kardashian Kommentary

Ouch....

Listen closely to the Kardashian sisters in the background, can we get any meaner?

Sugar Factory














I stumbled upon this....
Couture lollipops!!

Visit SugarFactory.com

Friday, March 13, 2009

New Jack Update: Judgement Week

The last prelude post should've definitely not been titled "Superman" as I feel far, far from it..but as today finally marks Friday and the end or a horrific week, I'm eager after my place of employment to actually attempt to re-cap it all.

The days were so rough and draining, that I couldn't even attempt to write anything down, let alone keep my eyes open...

Worse so, today is going to be my first and true day of adhering to a low-carb diet. For anyone who doesn't know me, I eat bread a minimum of twice per day...some times up to 4...this is going to be rough, but I have approximately one month to lose close to 15lbs as my 23rd birthday is approximately one month from tomorrow, 4/14/2009.

I<3>Bread
This time, truly, more after my place of employment...

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

New Jack Update: Superman

The last 24 hours has had my heart move faster than a speeding bullet and has left me feeling like I layed out directly next to Kryptonite...
More after my place of employment...

Monday, March 9, 2009

The Dream Update: Rockin' That Thang Remix

Love it...
"I wanna get on top of her, zoom on the Yamaha"
"Treat you like the first lady, I'll put my Barack in ya"

Saturday, March 7, 2009

Wednesday, March 4, 2009

MAC Update: Hello Kitty Couture



Prrrr....

There goes the rest of my paycheck...and I was supposed to be focused on being a "recessionista"

Sunday, March 1, 2009

New Jack Update: A Vision Board for: Moving Out

As a recent graduate of college, most would assume that I was far from stacked full of chips on Graduation Day and had to move back in with family upon my return.

My return is more and more being highlighted that it is unwelcome, but I'm in a scenario where I still am paying off massive credit debt, student loans, etc. and therefore, can barely account to have anything left over to "save". My stay is definitely being highlighted that it is no longer welcome at this point...

As far from ungrateful as I've put on display, 300% of the time somehow it is featured that I'm ungrateful to have somewhere to be after graduating college. I turned 21 approximately one month before Graduation day. I went into college at the age of 17, turning 17 two months before graduating from high school. I went to class, worked at the same time, dealt with the passing of my grandmother and emerged 100% on time and barely at the legal age of 21. I apologize for whoever might take it wrong, but I deserved to come out and relax for a minute. I was unemployed for nearly 9 months. Now that I am employed, as much as I might not love in least what I do, I still snagged a pretty goddamn great job itself, the money and benefits and title to go with it. I try to do all of this with a health condition that forces me to sleep anywhere from 10-13 hours per day. Though my efforts are not appreciated and respected, I anger not...

I simply carve the next move...
http://vision-board.tumblr.com/


Requirements:
  • I need to move WEST of Suffolk County. If I MUST still reside in Suffolk County, I have to live the closest to the Babylon and Mineola LIRR lines. This will envoke cheaper rent and provide the perfect opportunity for job relocation to NYC. I'm glad I'm so familiar with LIRR so backwards and forwards that I know exactly where to relocate to in order for things to be the most effective...
  • If not given a raise within the next 6 months, I need to speculate resigning from my current position. I can SAVE and I'm so unbelievably grateful to be making as much as I currently am enabling me to SAVE money to move out but I can't live on what I make for rent/utilities and God-forbid anything else...
  • I need to be living somewhat equidistant..I still want to be EXTREMELY close in proximity to my BFF and parents home which is five blocks away from each other as well as my family in Brooklyn. I'm not going to BANK my location on my relationship with The Significant, though we've been together a near 3 years now, if he doesn't step his game up the way I am he will fall away from me. I don't want to be that ex-girlfriend he bumps into in the supermarket regularly. Hells no. This location must be set on what is beneficial to me and me ONLY. As I am the proprietor of the apartment...however, when my friends go to the city, come from Long Island, come from Brooklyn etc. I want them to be able to stay at my place easily.
  • I want to save or have enough to have a 1 & 1/2 bedroom apartment. The 1/2 bedroom will 100% tailored as a walk-in closet. I have it completely mapped out 400%. My bedroom itself will NOT be a place of clothes, shoes, clutter etc. as it is NOW. There will be two separate places. The sanctuary where I rest my head..and the room where I will be able to view all my clothing and construct all my outfits, daily in peace.
  • Safe neighborhood. I'm a woman. I don't "gun-sling", etc. I'm not Tupac. I need to be somewhere, where I can park my car and not sleep with one eye open in fear it'll be missing the next day.
  • Curb my current spending habits...this month of February, people would've swore my name was Diddy. From Juicy Couture to Givenchy, from the Ipod Touch to Coach and going out to eat at restaurants 4 days a week, I've got to slow down crazy if I'm going to come up with bread...I went super hard this month, I have a ton of new stuff. A ton...
  • Clean and classy enough that has the potential for rent-to-own.
  • My Federal return is already burned up; I need to use the State return to fix my car and whatever is left over from it, add to the apartment savings account. In which, I was a good girl and added a $500 chunk from my Federal directly into the apartment account.
  • Unfortunately, take ADVANTAGE of this recession where everything is retardedly cheap..start stocking up on furniture, etc. on my first check of April 2009. Insects don't carry everything at once..they stock...little by little..
I'm going to devise a vision based, physical, vision board for this that I can actually HOLD. I'm going to print this entry and tack it unto it as well.
The only two things I should further allow myself is the new laptop I need in order to continue THIS work, and the Coach bag I've been watching for months...

There go the YSL tribute shoes I was going to buy.......

I'm so ready to get started, and I'm not waiting, it all begins today..is there a rehab for MAC Cosmetics spenders? Cause that could be the one thing to break the board..

"The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams"