Wednesday, April 29, 2009

New Jack Update: I'm Going to Tanya Harding a Ho

I got into a WILD, and VERY unnecesary car accident a couple nights ago...
The only UPSIDE I'm seeing to this, is the 97% chance that I'm getting a brand new car in 24 hours or less due to the severity of the accident..


















I'm also pleased to say it was NOT my fault, and the person is about to get clapped by me with a suit for reckless endangerment...
I was so mad about the situation he's so LUCKY he wasn't "Tanya Harding"-ed by me...


Golf club + Leg= Revenge...

More after the place of employment..& the car dealership...

Kim Kardashian Update: Blondie

It's only a wig...but I dig it...
Images via Twitpic



Tuesday, April 28, 2009

New Jack Update: HA HA HEE HEE HAHA HO

I'm so stressed out....

It seems like I'm working with no lights at the end of the tunnel...or it seems like the tunnel isn't ending either..

There's so much happening that I feel like my monetary is getting worse, my work load is getting worse & the things that are happening to me are just adding up..

It's funny that a friend said to me on Twitter "Muslims across America are laughing at everyone"..in regards to the SwineFlu epidemic. I responded to him by saying: "lmao about Muslims laughin at our piggy loving asses..straight up Britney HA HA HEE HEE HAHA HO"

First, we had MadCow disease and now, it's the SwineFlu....

With all I'm going through lately especially at work...I almost wish someone would beam a pig into my lap....

"Haha heehee haha ho"

Paradiso Girls Update: Patron Tequila

Hmmmm...
Anyone remember "PCD Presents: Search for the Next Doll"?
....remember, Chelsea Korka...

Or Asia Nitollano, my favorite?
Or more importantly the stiffness of Robin Antin's face..
She apparently has put together a new girl group...cause of course, we all somehow didn't see Girlicious as being a Grammy-winning group....

The new group is called Paradiso Girls...made in typical Antin-fashion, very PCD-esque.
I have to admit, I'm enjoying this debut single "Patron Tequila" and the video is being directed by Ray Kay (director for The Dream's "Rockin That Thang" video)..

The debut single features Lil Jon...here's a photo of the girl group, featuring Ray Kay, Lil Jon and even Eve..as their video was shot this past weekend in Los Angeles..

New Jack Update: HA HA HEE HEE HAHA HO

I straight up need someone to beam like Star Trek a pig filled with swine flu into my lap like yesterday....like yesterday. I'm so stressed out I would rather be bitten by 8 piglets right now....

Ugh..

More after the place of employment....

Friday, April 17, 2009

Drake Update: Replacement Girl

As per what I thought was a debut with Lil' Wayne, apparently I was so focused on Aubrey Graham also known as "Drake" the rapper and "Jimmy" on Degrassi that was NOT his first video appearance....

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

New Jack Update: 4:37 PM

At 4:37 PM yesterday, on 4/14/09, I became 23 years old...officially.















































4:37 PM is the time of birth listed on my birth certificate from Jamaica. I definitely stole my DJ's glasses for the above photo-DJ Ma$e. The second photo is definitely me, mid-"dutty wine"...yeah...

I had my birthday party on a bus, very "Ciroc Obama" status. The bus came equipped with a pole, plasma TV & an actual bathroom, which pleased me beyond ends. I put up about 14 bottles on the bus with donations from others who came on to the bus and had a grand total close to 30 people.

As I look at being age 23, the number instills a slight degree of fear as I do associate it with old age. I think of that 5 years ago at age 18, when I thought of the age 23 I saw myself in a totally different place. A more happier and successful place. I saw myself actually at least in the true pathways to doing what I really doing what I want to do, as opposed to my current status being not remotely in the zone of doing anything that has to do with even the essence of my being.

I'm a little stressed.
I'm a little content.
All simultaneously.

I feel a degree classier and I feel in the last year, I've learned way much more than I even bargained for especially in the working world.

Maybe 23 won't be nearly as horrific as I have been dreading it will be...
I feel the cougar in me coming out.......














Kanye West Update: Street Lights Video

Second favorite song off this entire album following, "Welcome to Heartbreak"

Gorgeous...

Case Update: Lovely

Interesting....

I posted about this song approximately, ONE year ago, in 2008...and the video has JUST debuted.

Record labels are really killing people's swag these days...sad, because I'm a humongous Case fan..

LOVELY


Saturday, April 11, 2009

Kendra Wilkinson Update: Shoot with Troy Jensen

I am really liking this make-up artist/ photographer, Troy Jensen. He does pretty much everything with Kim Kardashian...

And I did a feature on what he did on Nicole Scherzinger of the PussyCat Dolls.

Here's Kendra, from The Girls Next Door, looking actually high-fashion..

























Trey Songz Update: I Need a Girl

I am very much liking this song...as much as it might stress people...

i need a girl - trey songz



Check out snapshots of the video shoot from ConcreteLoop...

Thursday, April 9, 2009

New Jack Update: Workers Comp Anyone?

I'm a mess right now...

In more ways than one.....

It all began on Tuesday, where I was involved in an accident at work. I was injured, but in the shock of it all not realizing how severely injured until the pain and dizziness set in...

Over the last three days, everything is happening in the fast lane...and I'm not sure if that's because time is moving so quickly or because I'm so dizzy all the time from the concussion I suffer from. I've been out of work for the last three days and had to return to the ER to be x-rayed for further damage from pain I've been experiencing. I won't be back for at least another day as a result. Damages that I don't even want to detail...

However, all in all I'm very frustrated. Frustrated that I can't quite move around. Frustrated, as I felt that The Significant wasn't being overly compassionate, which I cleared all that information on how I was feeling directly with him. Furthermore frustrated that I had to lock my Twitter account. It's funny to me that people insist that they're above things, and that "this is so immature"-meaning social networking: Facebook, Twitter, Blogging, Myspace, etc. and yet, manage to Twitter stalk you without even having their own Twitter account.

I mean, when you look at it, what does it say about a person that Twitter stalks people, without having a Twitter account? People fail to look into the actions behind what people do and why people do what they do. The person who is always so quick to point a finger and say that "X actions" are immature, also turns out to be the person snooping into all the "X actions". And, it's sad. I was warned SO many times, by so many people even people not remotely friendly or close to me that said "You're getting too close to that one", "That one, please, trash talks you the minute you leave to EVERYONE and then insists that you two are partners/buddies/friends...yeah, good job", but after being burned once (the situation involving my blog being put on blast) I didn't listen. I let time pass, and then somehow genuinely started believe that they wouldn't go out there and put my blog on blast and furthermore, not paint it out as something it's not-a hate book. I blog about my life. Anything that happens, people that are in it, situations I'm in, things that interest me, etc.

Hence the term, "life journalist"?
(I've also seen how much people fail to actually know their constitutional rights as well as new digital millenium copyright acts regarding speech, art and written works for what people are ALLOWED TO DO and cannot be dictated otherwise to do by any other party, regardless of their personal feelings in the matter. As this is the SECOND time I've been direct requested to not write about something, as if they have a say in the matter?)

But when the "boy cries wolf" only so many times and says "I didn't do it, and I wouldn't do it" and then somehow gets proven later to have such a high amount of stealth...it speaks volumes. I don't even know if I should deem such behavior as stealth or good old rotten sneakiness. For there is a wrought difference between the FBI and a weasel.

It just opened up my mind. I truly have been warned a trillion times-of the fakeness, the deceitfulness, the "constant desire to get ahead, they'll friend ANYONE if it means they can USE them to get to the top", the "money grubbing" etc. and here I sit, burned twice.

Nevertheless, I move forward. Physically and mentally in pain, but forward nonetheless. Within the three days, it has been painted out to me across various platforms that it takes you to get physically injured to the point that you depend on assistance to see the colors that one truly bleeds. You see who claims to be your friends, and who responds to you snarkly when you request the help. You see how dismissive or how overly loving someone can be when you need them. You see the true values of company structure and where your health ranks in terms of importance. You see how in depth family is willing to or not willing to come to your aid.

It's enlightening and pathetic simultaneously.

My parents told a story to demonstrate the reasoning why I should just not be angry anymore, for the incessant desire to be a snoop must come at a price.

Apparently, there is a movie, where two best friends are together, both male and one of them buys a lotto ticket. The friends discover that the ticket is the winning ticket! Naturally, to set the plot, before the winning friend can cash his ticket, he dies but hid his ticket before his death. The other companion, not distraught over the death but more focused on how to be sneaky enough to FIND the winning ticket searches endlessly and uses all of his "stealth" to discover...the ticket was buried with his friend. At this point in time, the deceased friend's body is in the stage of decomposal, and regardless, his friend insists with eyes of greed to dig up his body to retrieve the ticket. In such mass horror to see his friend's decomposed state, his facial muscles permanently relax leaving this weasel of a friend with a frightening full face grin that directly resembles near to a decomposed skull itself. The friend cashes his winning ticket, and receives millions upon millions but is forced to wear a mask to hide his permanent horrific disfigurement as the price to pay for seeking out the money of his deceased friend. As his stealth and sneakiness got him millions, he had not one soul to share it with as everyone was disgusted and frightenened by his "new" features and he was forced to be alone with his millions.

Greed always comes at a price.

For just as there is a thin line between love and hate, there is one for stealth and deceit.

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

Lil Wayne Update: Every Girl

I don't know how to feel about this......

Aubrey Graham
from "DEGRASSI", is actually going by his tv show alias, "Jimmy" and raps on this track.
He's also playing a role opposing Chrisette Michele in her new video, "Epiphany"

What is this world coming to? Even though, "Jimmy" can get it...

Nina Sky Update: On Some Bullshit

I have to say...

When Nina Sky first dropped, I absolutely despised them. I couldn't tell the difference between the two twins, their "reggae" driven clothing style as the only genre of clothes they owned STRESSED ME and they had no versatillity whatsoever.

Needless to say, I quickly dismissed them in my mind even though EVERYONE in my high school was dancing around me singing "Oye Mi Canto", further raising my blood pressure.

Nina Sky
however has now won my affection. They have a totally, totally different look that I absolutely ADORE. I love that there is an actual difference between them, but the hair color thing makes me think of the reggae group "Brick & Lace". Their SOUND is way more appetizing to me. Their first single off the new album, "Musical" was titled 'Curtain Call' and features Rick Ross and it was something that no one understood and was blaring out of my car speakers driving to the beach all of summer '08. Now, this new song 'On Some Bullshit' is only being played by New York's, Hot 97-mainly by DJ Enuff but still has me just as hooked.
Two good songs. An actual REAL style. I might be actually purchasing this album via Itunes when it drops...

Sunday, April 5, 2009

Lollipop, You Must Mistake Me for a Sucker

Its been two weeks, probably more than since I've posted...
I thought it would be easy to vent it all out as per usual...but it was very different this time.
I closed the doors. All the doors.

I've been trapped in thoughts of confusion and inadequacy.

The last couple days the feelings don't seem to subside, they just grow.

I've truly been swagger jacked, but by the person I didn't expect it from in the least...

I'll admit it though, despite the fact that it's all very true, he did cheat a second time..I'm somehow finding the courage to give "us" a third go round. I'll admit it, I want to give him another go round. Much to the dismay of many, he's 'The Significant' because I love him.

When he doesn't answer the phone, I feel myself get a mild panic attack..

She called me. That's how I found out. The night before all the drama went down, I was getting phone calls from a 'Restricted' number, with breathing in the phone. This is exactly how it went down the first time he cheated and I found out. She too, called me, 'Restricted' and breathed in the phone. You watch scary movies and you say to yourself, 'it wouldn't be me answering that phone call' or 'why doesn't the person just run out the front door instead of letting the killer chase her up the stairs?' but the truth is, no one knows how they act in a scary movie until they play the lead role...
She called three times, maybe four, 'Restricted' and listed to me say "hello" each time. She breathed, I breathed, she hung up. My mind was racing as the situation was all too familiar with how it happened in 2006, the first time he did it to me. I felt a mild panic attack coming on, so I called my friend Nikki. I forced myself to sleep that night. I awoke to not one returned text or returned call from him. I was texting him from 4 that afternoon, at this point it was 11 that night.
She texted me. From her number, a New Jersey number inquiring as to who I was and said that she didn't want to be disrespectful, but he keeps painting me out to be his "cousin" and she had a gut feeling that I wasn't and she needed to put it to bed.
She called me. When I heard her voice, a new voice, a new girl...reflexively, I put my hand on my vanity dresser to support the rest of my body. I dropped my foundation brush and my knees started to buckle....

She asked me who I was. I told her I've been here for 3 years. She told me she's been around for the last two weeks. I just put him on my phone plan, Verizon. She did too, Sprint. And somehow, I'm still standing here....

Feeling inadequate, and worthless, but standing nonetheless. Or maybe crawling, as lately I'm not certain of the difference.

I look at myself in the mirror confused if my looks weren't enough.
Or my personality, as he said I made it "difficult" for him to open up to me...
But does that warrant sex? So maybe she was better in bed than I was...
My hair isn't mine, it's a weave...maybe, hers...real?
Or was it truly just plain greed? After everything I was doing for him...I was filling up his gas tank because he's currently not working. The same gas I paid for, drove him to New Jersey to her and back to Long Island to me.

....I still feel lost. "I'm not dead, just floating"-Pink
It's truly that feeling. I'm kind of on autopilot. I still engage with all my friends. I've started making plans with people again, stopped the ignoring of phone calls and texts as I've tried to keep myself on Earth and not getting trapped in my thoughts. I've realized how dangerous of a place that truly is.
And I say, "Lollipop, You Must Mistake Me for a Sucker"...but he does, because I am.