New Jack Update: Report Signature Masonic Sandal

Can...I...just have ONE moment of happiness?
...Just ONE....

I've been watching these shoes since at least, July 2008 when both Marleux and Nicole Bitchie first starting posting photos of Meagan Good in these sandals. At that time, I was trying to be a good egg and pay bills, etc.

As per Nicole Bitchie with the help of Marleux, the sandals were on SALE on Endless.com.
















And I just purchased them and I'm going to be the friggin proud owner as of Friday of this week.
You know who would appreciate these....Pristina Christina....Yep.

Summer '09 CANNOT come fast enough baby!

New Years Resolutions and Fossil Imprints-The Sequel

The New Year has started out...good yet bad. Up but down. Normal but weird.

I am not in the least comfortable with a moments worth of instability..not..one..moment. I just resolved to myself that the reason in which it might be beginning this way is because prior to the New Year beginning I didn't write out the official 2009 list as I kept telling myself I'm SUPPOSED to. This is why everything is so topsy-turvy..I didn't specify how the year should play out, so its playing out on a shuffle setting.

New Years eve began with me about to quit my job, and hearing the news that someone whos presence I NEEDED on New Years wasn't going to be present. Soon afterward, I left work "early" and The Significant upon hearing me in near tears agreed to pick up my friend from her house in Yonkers and drive us into Manhattan. As the countdown began, I realized I wasn't overly excited as many others were to kiss 2008 goodbye, '08 was a really good year for me. The Significant was parking his car that we came in at midnight, so I had no one to kiss...
However, after an entertaining night in Angels and Kings full of laughter, drink spilling and random fights we headed up to Yonkers in which..drunk people tried to COOK and caught a whole roll of paper towels on FIRE.

Not a small flame either...

With all the laughter and surrounded by those I love, I figured I started the New Year completely right. The 2009 that I was previously dreading, I figured "Fuck the list, I started this right". On the heels of New Years, starting Friday 1/2/09 The Significant and I have been in battle, even up to yesterday me posing threats to end the relationship entirely. I got into a deep conversation, not fight in the least with my BFF regarding "friendship levels". The measure in which certain people now stand with me, which was good for me to evaluate because I have been reaching out or handing out to those who don't deserve shit from me. They always have an excuse for something, they always have some BS going on, it's always SOMETHING. And, I'm over it. So in referencing the original to this post, I'm going to properly devise the sequel.

When goals are written they have a 57% chance of actually coming true...

• Work on my PATIENCE. This is on top of the list for a reason. Everyone, absolutely everyone is becoming intolerable of my lack of patience. When my grandmother passed away in 2004 the fossil imprint she should've left with me is high levels of patience. She was the most patient person I've ever known, and preached to me about it daily in which back then, I was WAY more patient..patient to a point that people took severe advantage of. It seems that upon her death, she took my patience to the grave with her. Coming upon the 5th anniversary of her death I should ressurect it in full by August 7th-the date of her death.
  
• Keep the structure of my postive relationships. At this point in the game, I know who are "idle friends", "co-workers", "friends remaining to prove themselves" and "ride or die". I've been spreading myself out TOO much. I do know exactly who to talk to and who I 200% trust, so why am I not limiting myself to those people? I need to not necessarily cut-off the excess but REDUCE the exposure to the excess...
• Be more professional. As much as I despise where I am currently, I've gotten too comfortable, and gotten too close with so many people that I shouldn't be. I need to draw the line 150%-work is work, play is play. Keep cordial with those at work that need to be kept cordial with and don't delve into too much personal for that is a weapon that will be used against me..and already has. And to top that off, this is a stepping stone so people need to have the most postive image of me as so possible because their sole purpose in my mind needs to now be reduced to simply using them as references. Their opinions of me work-wise are half the fare on my ticket to where I NEED to be, so why am I ruining the opportunity to get half the money paid?
  
• "Resolve my trust issues". This was an excerpt from the 2008 list, in which it said especially with men. In my opinion I've done A LOT BETTER with men, but that's because during 2008 the entire thing REVERSED and women became my enemy. Women in the past year used so many tools against me and I was caught so off guard and genuinely VERY hurt in lots of circumstances. I would like to begin to read more relationship books. Not just male to female relationships, just general relationships. Mothers to children, men and women, women and women in the workplace, love, male to male friendships etc. I need to understand relationships on a WHOLE in order to progress the right way with trust as I so wish to.
• Hashimoto Hypothyroidism: Yeah, that's me. This has come into knowledge mid to late 2008 that this is the thyroid disease I have. This means, in all seriousness, I CANNOT get stressed out, I have to eat better, take my medication and start a serious exercise regimen. Stress and poor eating exacerbate the seriousness of the disease. I already feel the effects hard core, like the fatigue when I sleep 10 hours easily. I despise exercise. Let me put that impoortant information out there, however, I feel like trash every single day. I have been feeling like trash for the last 4-6 months truly. The Hashimotos is making me either ridiculously hungry or not eat at all and I still gain weight. I can't keep my head up most nights past 10:30PM. My vision is usually blurred, I've developed severe stuttering and my memory is completely shot to all hell. Also, in addition my vision is getting worse because I've been sleeping in my contact lenses for weeks at a time. Gross, I know. I've probably consumed 412 gallons of soda in the whole year, and only 2 gallons of water. Looking at Oprah's Best Life program, going on this week, there is a lot I have to fix...
  

• MAKE MONEY. In 2008 I put this on the list, and it was no joke-as soon as 2008 began I was working steady temporary jobs landing me right into the job I have currently. I started 2008 just being content with the money I had and by June, I was "making it rain on them hoes" with the revenue. When the revenue became officially stable, I dove into correcting my credit woes. Now, even though Bank of America was successful in passing a judgement against me, I still have been working on everything else in the background. I would truly like by the end of this year that almost all the woes are put to bed. The earlier in the year, the better, seeing as I would like to use my money during '09 to get an apartment in Nassau County. That is the first step towards getting a job in NYC, writing....
• I need an apartment in Nassau County..not want...need...and will have..oh, with a walk-in closet..and The Significant in my bed a lot more often..
  
• Further strengthening my relationship with The Significant from the inside, out. At one point during 2008, he said some positive things to me that changed the relationship for the better entirely. I hate that we started this year rocky, but it'll be one of the last rocky situations. With him going back to college finally as I've begged him to thoroughly, me still working and saving for my apartment I want this year to be a solid year of advances for both of us separately but together. I want things to continue to be positive, and for understandings to grow and to feel at the end of 2009 that this isn't the end but the beginning of something really big for our union. I want him to fully trust me, and for us to truly be on the same page for our future together..I love him.
  
• Spend some more time with my PARENTS and younger brother..he graduates high school in June!
• Devote money to the success of my writing/blogging career. "You get what you give" "What you put in, is what comes out". I've put in words, I haven't put in advertising, money, networking etc. THIS year, this takes off. If I were buying a few less shoes, and putting that into THIS then a lot MORE would be coming out!
• Go hard for 2009...just go hard so during this year I can have what I want, how I want it, the way I deserve it...
  

New Jack Update: 2009 Hair-Curly Sue

If I have straight hair before February 15th, I want someone to stab me...

I needed something drastically different..like the year 2007 when I went firecrotch red..

New hair+bathing suit I wore in the hottub at Mohegan Sun this weekend...

The First Mohegan Photos

Here are some of the photos I took this weekend..
More to come...

The First Mohegan

I just did my first weekend at Mohegan Sun...

Britney Spears will be doing two shows there this March, and apparently in May of 2009 as well..(random tidbit)

I needed this time..

I've never done any gambling before (it's ironic that upon my first try, bible verses against it come immediately to mind) and I won, then lost $27.

$27 could be gas in my car, or a round trip LIRR train ticket with enough cash left over for a shot of Southern Comfort. Losing $27 definitely stresses me out, as I do not have $27 to lose and was hoping my $27 was going to grow significantly...

Well, it would be nice to use "FREE" money (a.k.a. "winnings greater than your initial input) to pay my Verizon Wireless bill.

Apparently, hope isn't going to get far in 2009...

However, I severely needed a break. A real break. Not to sound.."whiny" but, I almost feel like the break I've been allotted isn't even enough. It's not as much as I need to heal right now...

That's what I'm working on right now. Healing. Last week, I got back into that moment where work was pushing me to that brink of insanity that I felt that if the building were to suddenly combust or if I were to be laid off, it would almost be OK. Almost. Well....

I originally had plans with The Significant, which some how derailed and I guess did for the right reasons. I haven't been trusting lately in that God is steering me in the right direction or that He is aligning things in an order for a specific reason. I think that mistrust of lately has added to my detour on a path to near insanity. I've become control freak-ish about everything that is going on and not relaxing into the belief that there is some grander reason as to why something is occuring. Then, when I try to control things, and they don't work out it only lends so much to the stress. I've been feeling like I've been doing so many things for no reason. Or, reasons unbeknownst to me. Because I'm not seeing the immediate benefits of SEVERAL things, I've become crazed...not having the stamina to complete the simplest of tasks if I'm not able to piece them together with a neccessary outcome.

No bueno...

I've had to re-direct this for 2009. I started 2009 the right way, and I have to come to accept as per many fortune tellings and tarots that this is a year for me of long-term potential. This year is extremely vital in that everything I do starting early this year is going to formulate at the END of this year and into the years to follow. I'm not going to do something in January and see the resultants on February 1st. Everything I've read has been pointing me to that. It's going to be an intense year for me in developing patience as the primary trait I lack in the worst way, and my whole year's dependency is on me having the patience to see what will come in the months to follow. This is going to be the year where a lot of my personal desires come to fruition. I absolutely know this almost factually. It's a vibe I have but I'm already struggling hard with keeping my irritations DOWN as my lack of patience is being tested hard core.

It's only 5 days in...
Here's to hoping and praying that I truly develop some real, hard core patience..
Because with the way I'm being tested already if I don't develop some, this is going to be a not pretty 2009 for me and a lot of surrounding people...

Katy Perry Update: EMA 2008 Wrap Up

Almost like an MTV Katy Perry "Diary" episode...courtesy of Miss Perry herself...


You think you know, but you have no idear. from Katy Perry on Vimeo.

The Beginning of a Long 2009 List

I'm coming to the conclusion, that a part of why I've been feeling not so happy these days either is because I'm a "lister". I'm a "lister" who is not doing the act of "listing" out my agendas, ideas, etc.
At the end of 2007, when The New Jack first originated, I was all about listing what was necessary to do during 2008. I listed things I wanted to fix. Things I wanted to change. Things that should remain the same. Things that should be improved upon. Things to be achieved by year end, etc. I've been so bewildered by so many things going on that I haven't, in fact, listed shit.

....How productive.....

In order for 2009 to be as successful as 2008 was for me, I have to go about it the same way and stop already putting down the negative aura and saying "2009 is going to be an utter nightmare..". Wednesday is my last day at work this week before I embark upon "vacation" until the following Thursday. During these final days, I truly need to meditate, figure out plans for how I'm going to do things and list the shit out...just like I did, last year...

The list will begin with this, my quote to live by for 2009:

“The ability to simplify means to eliminate the unnecessary so that the necessary may speak.” - Hans Hofmann

New Jack Update: Trying to Improve for 2009

In a ball of confusion, as I try to implement new Dr.Quinn swag and still feeling some of the weight of being the only unsuccessful scholar I know, I've been doing some investigating...

These are on my mind, courtesy of Borders.com
The Fred Factor














You, Being Beautiful: the owner's manual to inner and outer beauty (featured on Oprah and Good Morning America)

New Jack Update: Etsy.com

I am a real sap...
I like really, really cute things...like, not teletubbies, because that's just eerie but like...cute coal. Who the hell would think to make coal, cute? Etsy.com

I want to cover my depressing work desk with these things...it would probably make me smile more often at work...
..instead of planning to a way to be offered up as a human sacrifice...

Telephone Bot













Christmas Coal!!!













Gingerbread :)














Franken~Bot

New Jack Update: Cookie Phone Charm

This excites me....
I'm a gluttonous person, I'm OK with the truth...

Get one at ModCloth.com

Katy Perry Update: Thinking of You

Katy Perry - Thinking Of You (HD)
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