Sunday, May 31, 2009
Friday, May 29, 2009
Fabolous Update: Throw It in the Bag/ It's My Time
2 videos from "Loso in case you didn't know so"
It's My Time
Throw It in the Bag
It's My Time
Throw It in the Bag
Lady Gaga Update: Paparazzi
A must MUST watch...My favorite song on the album...The Fame in stores NOW:
Thursday, May 28, 2009
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
New Jack Update: How I feel Sometimes
They say "A picture means a 1,000 words", and this picture is exactly that to me. Despite the fact that I am heterosexual, this picture was in regards to same-sex marriage in California and was taken this past Memorial Day weekend and my heart goes out to them. {Image: Getty}
I'm working hard or at least, dreaming and thinking hard about this blog because of all it stands for, for me personally. I think people derive entertainment from it, and in some instances it causes them to think a little deeper...but this whole thing started as a private-public journal. Though same-sex marriage rights are way harder to come by, I've been thinking a great deal lately of all the people I'm hearing about my own age being fired from their jobs for..well, their own human rights. Their right to expression. People update their feelings and doings on Twitter, their social drinking on Myspace and Facebook and use Blogger and WordPress as a sort of, open diary. Though my current place of employment is not and has not brought up anything in recent times to my blogging-because they have before, and I will not stop; it makes me wonder if this will in turn prevent me from getting another job.
As I look to move forward and progress with my life, by tailoring my employment more to the lines of what I think I'm suited to wear, I indeed wonder.
I feel like I'm constantly in battle, as if I'm constantly fighting for rights that I believed so easily to have....
Freedom of Expression.
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
Feeling Inspired
I needed this 4 day weekend....
I'm feeling refreshing, rejuvenated and very inspired...
Maybe, 6 months in to the year 2009 still means that there's 6 months left to make a big change. I'm realizing that as much as I thought I laid OUT those changes, I haven't. Last year I had such an extensive list from 2007 going into 2008. Very tailored, and because it was, it was executed thoroughly during 2008 making it the year I wanted it to be.
I'm taking small steps towards seeing the glass half full, as opposed to my normal state-half-empty.
I'm going to begin work on moving 'The New Jack'. The spam+robots truly=death. I've been writing in here for nearly two years, but its capabilities are being stripped by outside forces. I'm sort of working on the 'new house' before I invite everyone over for the house-warming party. I'm struggling beyond words with CSS and HTML, but hopefully when I'm done...and I'd like to set that goal at by Fourth of July, The New Jack will start to run the way I WANT it to run.
But first, off to the place where the money actually comes from to do these things....
"The key is not to prioritize what's on your schedule, but to schedule your priorities." S.Covey
"The best way out of a difficulty is through it." Unknown
"We must either find a way or make one." A.Robbins
I'm feeling refreshing, rejuvenated and very inspired...
Maybe, 6 months in to the year 2009 still means that there's 6 months left to make a big change. I'm realizing that as much as I thought I laid OUT those changes, I haven't. Last year I had such an extensive list from 2007 going into 2008. Very tailored, and because it was, it was executed thoroughly during 2008 making it the year I wanted it to be.
I'm taking small steps towards seeing the glass half full, as opposed to my normal state-half-empty.
I'm going to begin work on moving 'The New Jack'. The spam+robots truly=death. I've been writing in here for nearly two years, but its capabilities are being stripped by outside forces. I'm sort of working on the 'new house' before I invite everyone over for the house-warming party. I'm struggling beyond words with CSS and HTML, but hopefully when I'm done...and I'd like to set that goal at by Fourth of July, The New Jack will start to run the way I WANT it to run.
But first, off to the place where the money actually comes from to do these things....
"The key is not to prioritize what's on your schedule, but to schedule your priorities." S.Covey
"The best way out of a difficulty is through it." Unknown
"We must either find a way or make one." A.Robbins
Friday, May 22, 2009
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
New Jack Update: This is Weird
My first vlog...
My face looks HUGE....
I did it from my Blackberry...
Did I mention, that my face looks HUGE?
My face looks HUGE....
I did it from my Blackberry...
Did I mention, that my face looks HUGE?
Sunday, May 17, 2009
New Jack Update: Out of School Suspension
Another rough week in the bag...
I got suspended from work...and quite frankly, I've been so high strung off of it that I want to put other people in the "time out" corner themselves. As a child, I never once experienced "out of school suspension" or as my high school counterparts dubbed it, "OSS". The idea that it's happening to me now, as a 23 year old adult makes me feel like a deliqent of some sort.
...Not a feeling I'm comfortable with....
I'm also so frustrated with the rate of repair between The Significant and I, that even though I know I shouldn't be, I'm so annoyed that I almost want to give him an OSS of his own. One that's actually, not particularly just...
I didn't finish my spring cleaning either...many would beg to question by looking at the state of affairs, if I actually begun...
To top it off, as of tomorrow, I'm car-less once again...
I'm trying hard not to dictate and follow in the ways of "The Secret" and NOT say that 2009 is NOT my year and that 2008 was TOO good. I'm going to withold to my resolutions, follow "The Secret" and keep my thoughts clean...
More after a hopeful goodnight's rest, and a somewhat peaceful day at my place of employment tomorrow...
I got suspended from work...and quite frankly, I've been so high strung off of it that I want to put other people in the "time out" corner themselves. As a child, I never once experienced "out of school suspension" or as my high school counterparts dubbed it, "OSS". The idea that it's happening to me now, as a 23 year old adult makes me feel like a deliqent of some sort.
...Not a feeling I'm comfortable with....
I'm also so frustrated with the rate of repair between The Significant and I, that even though I know I shouldn't be, I'm so annoyed that I almost want to give him an OSS of his own. One that's actually, not particularly just...
I didn't finish my spring cleaning either...many would beg to question by looking at the state of affairs, if I actually begun...
To top it off, as of tomorrow, I'm car-less once again...
I'm trying hard not to dictate and follow in the ways of "The Secret" and NOT say that 2009 is NOT my year and that 2008 was TOO good. I'm going to withold to my resolutions, follow "The Secret" and keep my thoughts clean...
More after a hopeful goodnight's rest, and a somewhat peaceful day at my place of employment tomorrow...
Drake Update: Best I Ever Had
Apparently...
A fight breaks out in the audience...
People just can't enjoy something good...
A fight breaks out in the audience...
People just can't enjoy something good...
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
Sunday, May 10, 2009
New Jack Update: Something In the Air
I don't know what it is today...maybe, I just needed the amazing weekend I had.
The month of April was a sizzling, steaming, hot mess and I didn't want to feel like May was doomed to be under the same spell. Even with Mercury in retrograde....
I feel good..
For the first time in about a solid 4 weeks, I feel good.
I'm cleaning up my surroundings to try and see if clearing some clutter will aid in keeping the zen..
Shouts to Po for the robots links..I still need your help fam..
One thing at a time...first lets start with my bedroom...maybe doing some late spring cleaning at work & then fixing this blog...
The month of April was a sizzling, steaming, hot mess and I didn't want to feel like May was doomed to be under the same spell. Even with Mercury in retrograde....
I feel good..
For the first time in about a solid 4 weeks, I feel good.
I'm cleaning up my surroundings to try and see if clearing some clutter will aid in keeping the zen..
Shouts to Po for the robots links..I still need your help fam..
One thing at a time...first lets start with my bedroom...maybe doing some late spring cleaning at work & then fixing this blog...
Wednesday, May 6, 2009
New Jack Update: Anyone Up for Adoption?
I need to move out, within the next 2 weeks or less or somehow, get adopted.
If not, this house that I live in may be in ashes by that time if my mother continues to consistently raise my blood pressure & irritate me..
But two can play that game..and it's worse that people choose to play with me when Mother's Day is 4 days away.
Oh well, I didn't start it but I'll sure as hell finish it...
...trust me...
If not, this house that I live in may be in ashes by that time if my mother continues to consistently raise my blood pressure & irritate me..
But two can play that game..and it's worse that people choose to play with me when Mother's Day is 4 days away.
Oh well, I didn't start it but I'll sure as hell finish it...
...trust me...
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
Revisiting Quotes...
A year ago, I wrote this post, "Quote Them"
With all the happenings in the month of April and me trying REALLY hard to keep quiet and...move forward if you will, I decided to re-list them..
Trying to look at the bigger picture...
As I grow older, I pay less attention to what men say. I just watch what they do.
- Andrew Carnegie
Preach! Write! Act! Do anything save to lay down and die! - Hawthorne
The fellow who thinks he knows it all is especially annoying to those of us who do. - Harold Coffin
It's kind of fun to do the impossible. - Walt Disney
Read over your compositions, and when you meet a passage which you think is particularly fine, strike it out.
- Samuel Johnson
He that makes haste to be rich shall not be innocent. - Proverbs (28:20)
Great works are performed not by strength but by perseverance. - Samuel Johnson
I will not condemn you for what you did yesterday, if you do it right today.
- Sheldon S. Maye
Every generation laughs at the old fashions, but follows religiously the new. - Henry David Thoreau
History will be kind to me for I intend to write it. - Winston Churchill
Wherever you go, go with all your heart.
- Confucius
An amateur built an ark that survived a flood while a large group of professionals built the Titanic. - Bill Swanson
Every really new idea looks crazy at first. - Alfred North Whitehead
With all the happenings in the month of April and me trying REALLY hard to keep quiet and...move forward if you will, I decided to re-list them..
Trying to look at the bigger picture...
As I grow older, I pay less attention to what men say. I just watch what they do.
- Andrew Carnegie
Preach! Write! Act! Do anything save to lay down and die! - Hawthorne
The fellow who thinks he knows it all is especially annoying to those of us who do. - Harold Coffin
It's kind of fun to do the impossible. - Walt Disney
Read over your compositions, and when you meet a passage which you think is particularly fine, strike it out.
- Samuel Johnson
He that makes haste to be rich shall not be innocent. - Proverbs (28:20)
There is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out fear. For fear has to do with punishment, and whoever fears has not been perfected in love. 1 JOHN 4:18 "Young women are too critical of their looks. What makes you beautiful is feeling comfortable with yourself-and finding happiness in how you live YOUR LIFE"- Vera Wang |
Great works are performed not by strength but by perseverance. - Samuel Johnson
I will not condemn you for what you did yesterday, if you do it right today.
- Sheldon S. Maye
Every generation laughs at the old fashions, but follows religiously the new. - Henry David Thoreau
History will be kind to me for I intend to write it. - Winston Churchill
Wherever you go, go with all your heart.
- Confucius
An amateur built an ark that survived a flood while a large group of professionals built the Titanic. - Bill Swanson
Every really new idea looks crazy at first. - Alfred North Whitehead
New Jack Update: The Bigger Picture
Car less...
Incessantly fighting with Ma Dukes...
Dead broke....seriously...
Work drama...
I did a tarot reading on Sunday, that despite these things I'm supposed to be focusing on the "bigger picture"...
Like...
Despite the "work drama", work=money, money=fixing "car less" issue + money to host The New Jack & get all the bugs fixed from robots & spam hacking my blog..
I have to try and tack everything I do to something bigger and better as the reasoning to keep my mouth shut or not to punch someone.
It's supposed to tame the beast if you will.....
I did an OK job yesterday..I'm mean, I almost carved a smile with a knife onto my mother's face as per "The Joker" in the "Dark Knight" because she's heavily getting on my last nerve..but, I focused on the bigger picture...
I'm working...once I get my finances straight, I will move out and nothing she says or does will be remotely relevant to my existance.
That's the bigger picture....
I'm struggling though....this will be Day 2, trying to find out how I'm getting to and from work with no car..
How not to curse my mother out....
Tell myself reasons why stripping for quick off the books cash is not an option...
Watch my page views & stats drop to nothing because of spam & robots...
Tell myself I'm trying to lose 30lbs, so the fact that I'm car less and can't get to fast food is OK...
Try to not be annoyed that I can't get to The Significant..
The list just keeps going with things working against me as opposed to for me...
I'm going to try it out again....focus all day on the bigger picture...
and don't shank anyone...
Incessantly fighting with Ma Dukes...
Dead broke....seriously...
Work drama...
I did a tarot reading on Sunday, that despite these things I'm supposed to be focusing on the "bigger picture"...
Like...
Despite the "work drama", work=money, money=fixing "car less" issue + money to host The New Jack & get all the bugs fixed from robots & spam hacking my blog..
I have to try and tack everything I do to something bigger and better as the reasoning to keep my mouth shut or not to punch someone.
It's supposed to tame the beast if you will.....
I did an OK job yesterday..I'm mean, I almost carved a smile with a knife onto my mother's face as per "The Joker" in the "Dark Knight" because she's heavily getting on my last nerve..but, I focused on the bigger picture...
I'm working...once I get my finances straight, I will move out and nothing she says or does will be remotely relevant to my existance.
That's the bigger picture....
I'm struggling though....this will be Day 2, trying to find out how I'm getting to and from work with no car..
How not to curse my mother out....
Tell myself reasons why stripping for quick off the books cash is not an option...
Watch my page views & stats drop to nothing because of spam & robots...
Tell myself I'm trying to lose 30lbs, so the fact that I'm car less and can't get to fast food is OK...
Try to not be annoyed that I can't get to The Significant..
The list just keeps going with things working against me as opposed to for me...
I'm going to try it out again....focus all day on the bigger picture...
and don't shank anyone...
Monday, May 4, 2009
Sunday, May 3, 2009
Quote Of The Day-5/3/09
"Cherish your visions and your dreams as they are the children of your soul; the blue prints of your ultimate achievements."
- Napoleon Hill
I'm Going to Tanya Harding a Ho
My car is officially totaled..
As in, non-existent...non functional...not here...not to be repaired.
They cut me a check, and despite the economic times & my far from stellar credit I took my dollars and dreams and spent the entire weekend in higher spirits feeling on Friday I was going to OWN a Pontiac G6-GT.
Instead, today is Sunday and I'm confined to my home with no transportation and no hopes of a car unless I come up with $3,000.
What the HELL happened to me in April 2009?
I started the month with a salary cut, right off the back...glided into a workers comp injury..lost a total of probably 7 days from work which turned out to do way more damage to my life than good rest to my soul..then slid into a car accident, for them to to find the person who blatantly crashed into me NOT at fault & my car total out, leaving me the victim...car less.
Again, what exactly...did I do wrong for April 2009 besides want to celebrate my 23rd birthday in peace & happiness? Try to embrace the old woman-wrinkle club swag?
Cause really, April 2009 destroyed my swag and what I don't like is overflow...and it's apparently flowing over into May 2009 which I'm going to need to come to a complete hault immediately.
Thanks Jesus, with love, Management.
These varied unpretty April 2009 situations truly make me want to come through and "Tanya Harding" someone. Like the person who crashed into me...like the police officers who didn't really care...like my lack of control for not having the credit to turn around & buy a new car...like my job for giving salary cuts at the most inopportune time in all of history with no real proper warning so people could PLAN...
I'm just NOT seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. I expressed that recently to Boss Lady. That I just don't see it, don't feel it and everything that's happening to me is screaming that there isn't one...
I feel myself just getting plain angry. Which is not within my character. I get upset, sad, very frustrated and can be a crybaby, but not just generally angry. Everything I do, I just feel anger about.
I guess, in all my anger someone should really keep an eye on me...
And keep me away from golf clubs...
As in, non-existent...non functional...not here...not to be repaired.
They cut me a check, and despite the economic times & my far from stellar credit I took my dollars and dreams and spent the entire weekend in higher spirits feeling on Friday I was going to OWN a Pontiac G6-GT.
Instead, today is Sunday and I'm confined to my home with no transportation and no hopes of a car unless I come up with $3,000.
What the HELL happened to me in April 2009?
I started the month with a salary cut, right off the back...glided into a workers comp injury..lost a total of probably 7 days from work which turned out to do way more damage to my life than good rest to my soul..then slid into a car accident, for them to to find the person who blatantly crashed into me NOT at fault & my car total out, leaving me the victim...car less.
Again, what exactly...did I do wrong for April 2009 besides want to celebrate my 23rd birthday in peace & happiness? Try to embrace the old woman-wrinkle club swag?
Cause really, April 2009 destroyed my swag and what I don't like is overflow...and it's apparently flowing over into May 2009 which I'm going to need to come to a complete hault immediately.
Thanks Jesus, with love, Management.
These varied unpretty April 2009 situations truly make me want to come through and "Tanya Harding" someone. Like the person who crashed into me...like the police officers who didn't really care...like my lack of control for not having the credit to turn around & buy a new car...like my job for giving salary cuts at the most inopportune time in all of history with no real proper warning so people could PLAN...
I'm just NOT seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. I expressed that recently to Boss Lady. That I just don't see it, don't feel it and everything that's happening to me is screaming that there isn't one...
I feel myself just getting plain angry. Which is not within my character. I get upset, sad, very frustrated and can be a crybaby, but not just generally angry. Everything I do, I just feel anger about.
I guess, in all my anger someone should really keep an eye on me...
And keep me away from golf clubs...
Drake Update: So Far Gone Mixtape
I've been looking for a copy of this to embed it here....
THIS makes me happy...
Drake - So Far Gone (MixtapePlayer.com)
THIS makes me happy...
Drake - So Far Gone (MixtapePlayer.com)
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