Thursday, November 6, 2008

You're Getting Sleepy...

To tell the truth...

I'm friggin exhausted....
I've been drowning in so much work, and with my body not physically up to par, this week if anyone couldn't tell, I've been entirely off the ball.
I pick up the laptop...
Open for a post...
The next I know:
I'm putting down the laptop...
And falling unconsciouss..

This unattractive, eat and constant sleep routine is not doing ANYTHING positive for my weight.
One can only imagine...
But I do however, hope to report now that my thyroid medication has passed through and I have some, ahem, change in my account that I can I guess dedicate to my prescriptions as well as failing car. It just seems as of late, as much as I'm trying to remain positive there's either not enough hours in the day or I'm too exhausted to utilize the hours in the day.
Its been said several times "Sleep is the cousin of death", with how often I've been asleep by my choice or not, I'm wondering if I'm honestly getting in too close with the family...

There's so much left to do, so much left to accomplish, and in recent..and odd thoughts of death of late, what really happens when it's all over? I've been so unmotivated of late. Making plans to lose X amount of weight,staring at inspiration, staring at all the available tools to make a change in as little as three weeks. I've done absolutely nothing. Correction, I have. I've slept. I'm in such a deep, and what others would refer to as dark place in my mind completely wrapped in the uncertainty of death. What one immediately experiences after their heart beats its last beat. I'm wrapped in the truth that I refuse to acknowledge that my heart too, will one day beat its last beat.
I don't know when..
I don't know how...
But, I haven't come to accept that it will happen...

A woman of 106 years old voted on Tuesday, November 4th, 2008. You wonder...

How much green tea did she drink?
How active was she per day?
How did she avoid: heart disease, diabetes, cancer, car accidents, stroke,alzheimer's, you name it..
..Was she CHOSEN to live this long..for a reason...

I'm hoping with me purchasing my thyroid medication that it helps me in the physical department hard core...the sleeping, has honestly, got to lighten up a whole lot.
And the death thing?
A little less Grey's Anatomy could be an easy cure.....

2 comments:

Po said...

Wow... Sorry to hear that... Aint nothing wrong with sleeping.. If you are tired, rest...

Jax Poetic said...

my great grandfather was 112 when he died. And they told me the man ate red meat everyday, with a side of goat milk...and went about living his life. Maybe it's in the...stress-less, carefree way of living? Cause that man gave a shit about naught a thing